"Why Maine?" And specifically, "why Bar Harbor?"
|Frenchman's Bay, Downtown Bar Harbor|
Why after 15 years living along the Front Range of sunny Colorado did I decide to go to a small town on and island off the coast of Maine over 2000 miles away?
In summer of 2011, I wanted to take a trip by myself. Somewhere that I could "reset" in the midst of my chaotic and confusing life that I had created. During this time I was writing a novel (one in which I may or may not still be writing...). In the novel, I have a couple of the characters from Maine. I decided then, that I would go there for my vacation. Not to research, no, it more or less just helped me decide where I would vacation.
So, I pulled up google maps and with the index finger of my right hand, I circled around the state of Maine, zoomed in and then stopped and said "There, that's it. Bar Harbor on Mount Desert Island. That is where they (the characters in my novel) will be from and that is where I shall go."
|On The Shore Path|
I didn't research the island before I went though I knew that I wanted to stay at a Bed & Breakfast on the ocean. I chose the Shore Path Cottage. I booked my stay and then booked my flight (yes, in that order). And off I went for 7 days that July. Epiphanies came, clarity sparkled and I felt at peace. Perhaps those were the aspects that I couldn't shake.
When I left, there were no thoughts that I would ever move to Bar Harbor, but I knew one thing: I would be back.
February of this year, I found myself in a crossroads I had never experienced before. I knew that I needed a shift. A major, life altering, mind bending shift. I knew this before February though it became more and more pressing as the days went on. Anyone that knows me, knows that I am generally a very happy, optimistic, lovin' life person. But, I was exhausted. Exhausted from pretending that I loved my life when I was struggling emotionally, physically, spiritually and financially. Every aspect of my 'healthy' was...Broken. And, I wasn't asking for help.
I had to not only admit this, but allow myself to feel it. And accept it. I then had to also acknowledge that happiness is a choice. Just as our thoughts are a choice.
Working at a software company in Boulder, Colorado is dream to many. And it in many aspects, it was for me too. My time there was well spent. I learned, I grew and I met some amazing people that I still hold very dear to me. But after three years, my soul was telling me that there was something I needed to feed. Something I needed to explore. Or as I like to say, "feed the rat," an expression I picked up in Australia years ago.
There were thoughts of going back to Los Angeles, exploring San Francisco, New York City or Washington D.C. And even some job applications that went out. But nothing resonated with me and the thought of actually moving seemed so HARD. Daunting.
It came to me one day that what I truly wanted, was to just be. I can't explain that element so I will leave it up to your interpretation. Once I let go of the fear of not having money and the pressure of making other people proud and doing what I thought I should be doing, the decision was simple. I needed a place where I could just be and I needed to stop searching.
So I did. I stopped searching, stopped stressing about where I was working, what I was doing, my résumé, jobs and what the next year of my life would hold. Soon thereafter, in my yoga session, it came to me. In hot yoga (triangle pose), "Bar Harbor. That is where I need to go. That's it." It was more clear than anything that had ever come to me before. That night, I began to put things in motion. That was in February. I made my way here the end of April. It took me 4 days and a total of 38 hours of driving to get here.
Below you will find 12 YouTube links to video clips that I posted along the way or, if we are connected on Facebook, you can view them here.
Part 12 (Finale)
In the three months prior to my move, I found movers, secured a temporary place to live, secured a job and the various other odds and ends that moving entails. And although the time of my life was stressful and painful due to other circumstances, the move itself came quite easily. About a week after my move-in, the movers arrived with the rest of my belongings. My oh my, how I adore my own bed.
|The view from from my 'backyard'|
So, here I am in Bar Harbor. From an apartment (living solo, sans pets), in South Boulder, to a house in the woods on the ocean with three other people, a dog, two goats and chickens. Three weeks ago, I was sipping my Americano whilst checking my countless emails at the office, surrounded by technology, this morning I was sipping my coffee (made from my french press of course), outside in the sun whilst a goat attempted to eat my hair and then proceeded to climb into my lap and spill my coffee.
|A typical morning|
My how the times have changed. As they always will. But I am me. And in ME, I will be.
|Just me, blowin' in the wind...|
My gratitude goes out to many for helping me along in this journey. They know who they are.
I have no idea what the next chapter will be.
I'll let you know.